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The chronicles of an ACCA student.

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So at one point in time, my name was not even mentioned once in the whole of the blog post. Then now, there was this ‘special thanks’ sentence dedicated to me.

When did you decide to add it in? It sure wasn’t there when I first read the post.

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October 30, 2010 at 9:18 pm

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Sore.

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Ever since that night, my heart is sore. 心淡.

Though I woke up in the morning to find your apology text message, I think it’s better to keep my distance.

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October 28, 2010 at 11:57 pm

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One of the days that I really, REALLY need a big hug. Just someone to tell me, it’s gonna be okay.

Is it me being sensitive? Or you being insensitive? Like really.

I’m not understanding? I’m NOT understanding? In return to your justifications in how I’m not understanding, how am I suppose to know how is it like there? I’ve never studied abroad and you’ve never ‘updated’ me so to speak on what you do there.

I don’t know a single thing, on what’s going on there. I don’t even know what you do there, except for updates here and there, from friends, but seldom from you.

I don’t get it why am I getting the blame.

If you think that I’m feeling like you’re ignoring me, which technically says you know you are ignoring me. Hello, I know I’m just another somebody in your life, but have it ever occur to you somehow or rather I’m like in the dark or something.

Though the tweets weren’t referring to that, or were they (now that I think of it, they fit)? Since you brought it up, it’s food for thought. You don’t reply me, from my perspective you reply a lot of people in the world but you don’t reply me. Did I just get singled out by coincidence?

If it’s one thing that I’m really disappointed about, was that when I woke up 5.30am on your birthday, I told you I would wanna give you a call or something to sing you a birthday song. You didn’t appear anywhere. Why do you think I wanna call? I just want to hear your voice.

Tonight is just… I don’t know I don’t even know how to describe how I feel. Disappointed? Maybe. Surprised? Not really, its you I’m talking about. Upset? Yea, a whole lot, but thats not really the word. Heartbroken? Totally.

I’m trying to have a conversation and when you seem uninterested, I’m just… trying to save whatever dignity I’ve left.

‘Well sorry for pissing you off then, or ending your night badly. Bye.’

Seriously. Really made me felt like a fool. Why bother, really.

So, its back to the question, am I really that sensitive? Or it’s just you being insensitive.

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October 26, 2010 at 12:38 am

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‘.. and I wonder if I ever crossed your mind. For me it happens all the time.’ – Lady Antebelum

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October 16, 2010 at 6:19 pm

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Confused.

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Sometimes I wonder if I should have done what I did on that particular Tuesday night. At least it removes the awkwardness, and the apparent cold shoulder I’m getting, or at least thats what I think I’m getting.

Sometimes I really just feel like being invisible.

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October 15, 2010 at 1:41 am

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I wonder, why does it seem like you’re avoiding me. Could I be thinking too much..?

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October 12, 2010 at 1:06 am

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I am still trying to get used to your absence. I miss you so much.

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October 10, 2010 at 11:48 pm

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