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The chronicles of an ACCA student.

Of Regrets and many things.

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I’m wondering if I should have stuck to P6 for the 2nd time this round.

I’m wondering if I should have taken OBU in the last semester.

I’m wondering if I should have purchased a car before I started work.

I’m even wondering if I should have taken accounting in the first place.

I’m also wondering if I should have done that confession that night.

I’ve lost that confidence that has always been my source of strength. I don’t know where it went. I also think I’m backsliding in my faith. I don’t believe in Him as much as I did before.

I felt I’ve been left alone in this struggle.

So where are you, God? When I needed You most.

I can’t feel You, I can’t hear You. and yet they say You’re always there.

I used to think ACCA is going to be a breeze, I used to think the papers are not impossible to pass. Look at me now, I simply don’t see the end of it.

Seriously, I feel I’m stuck in a God-forsaken rat race. No matter how you say it, I don’t really buy God talk as much as I did.

The girl that I’m in love with, is halfway across the globe, with no indication of any reciprocation of the feelings I’ve shown. One year, huh. I think a year is all it takes for a lot of things to change. The fact that I am still in the dark over the issue, I have no idea how long will I be able to hang on to this.

Am I really THAT predicatable? Thinking of something Wei Ling gave it to my face once. I may have to lose the bet of a meal to her, or not.

Life is full of regrets.

If only we don’t have to live life regretting decisions made in foresight.


Written by nwck89

December 2, 2010 at 12:52 am

Posted in Thoughts

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